When he emerged as a 15-year-old kid making his record-breaking PSL debut in 2004 with Ajax Cape Town, Mkhanyiseli Siwahla was touted as the next big star in South African football.
However, the Nyanga-born midfielder has had some difficulties in his career, which have delayed his progress along the way.
The attacking midfielder is on course to making use of what is left of his professional career with Partizán Bardejov in Slovakia, having previously had a spell with Proch Pionki in Poland.
The 30-year-old has spoken about his career and life struggles in a no-holds-barred interview in edition 1125 of Soccer Laduma.
“Sometimes we do things because we don’t know. Sometimes you do get advised on how to do certain things, but decide to do them your own way, which you think is right. As I am coming back home for the end of-season break, I feel like there is a person or people in South African football that I need to apologise to. But I wish I knew that person or those people. I wish he or they can allow me that opportunity and I would appreciate it.
"I have grown up and I am happy in life. At the end of the day, football is bigger than all of us. We have to respect the supporters that support us and support the game. We are nothing without those people because they make the game interesting and they sacrifice a lot. I love my country and I would love to clear the Siwahla name from the bad books through an apology. If it’s a fan that I need to apologise to, I can do that. I feel I might have done something wrong to someone without realising it. Life is too short!,” said Siwahla.
The dribbling star has admitted to believing that the doors are closed for him in football in Mzansi, following his struggle with getting a club in the PSL since leaving Chippa United in 2014.
“That’s correct! Wherever I have gone to (in search of a club), I have always been looked at in a different way and I feel that the doors have been closed for me. I don’t mind about it, it’s okay. But, honestly, I would love to come back and play football in my country. That’s where it all started for me. I am used to the PSL game. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy where I am (Slovakia) and I am enjoying myself. I am grateful for the opportunity they have given me. I know that even if I can try to come back home, there will be a problem. If there’s someone doing it deliberately, makandixolele (may that person forgive me). Why can’t that person forgive me for whatever I did in the past? Allow me to come and apologise to you directly if you know out there that it’s you I’m talking about,” added Ntsimbi, as the player is fondly known.